At 29 years old, I’ve had countless jobs, and a lot of them are jobs people would be extremely content and happy to have gotten. I have left each and everyone one of them. Recently, I was terminated from a position. Now, I feel like a complete failure. Truth is, I got the job because I am good at what I do. Customer service is my forte and I’m not ashamed to admit it. But, I have only been able to hold two jobs in my life for longer than two years. I am so ashamed of this. I'm accepting the fact that, my depression, anxiety, and insomnia has affected my ability to keep a job.
Looking back, I have begun every one of those jobs with extreme enthusiasm. I have excelled at anything I put my mind to. However, after a period of approximately one to three months. I found myself neglecting my responsibilities as an employee, abusing the attendance rules, and losing interest in wanting to be around in the world. Then, I found myself isolating myself from my family, and friends basically declining to spend time them over and over. Sadly, my mental health was declining. Every day, I was sad, angry, and irritable all the time. I couldn't sleep. Most of the time, I found myself wishing there was a way to just shut off my brain. Physically, my appearance had changed. I had gained over fifty pounds and I hated the way I looked.
To Top Things Off, I was also diagnosed with high blood pressure.
My depression has lead me down a self-destructive path.
What's important is that I invested in MYSELF, and sought professional help to overcome this mental illness.